Writing and Woes

My name is Miss Allen,   and I have Generalised Anxiety and Depression.   Phew !   Now   that's over   ,let's   get onto other things... Like how you'll have to   tell me to shut up a lot because I tend to like to sing ( badly lmao).   But I love most genres of music-   and I'll even take requests,   Though my favourites are definitely 80's songs,   and almost certainly Les Mis. Also ,   I   love to read - mostly all teen fiction. And when it comes to   all things Harry Potter,   I have the slightest addiction.   But ,   I don't stop at reading, as I also love to write,   it's usually my feelings into an awful poem ( such as this), and often late at night. With films, I love   Marvel ,   and even the odd DC   then sometimes I'll watch a chick   flick ,   or even a comedy.   Yet it's Book- to- film adaptions, that often get my votes, But these days what I've n...

05/09/2017 Today I woke up and I felt good, really happy, in fact. This kind of fulfilling happiness is so rare these days that it took me completely by surprise. This is not to say that I am unhappy everyday. But just that usually, even when I’m having “fun” , I am usually still  slightly anxious , sad , or distracted. I am hardly ever enveloped in an unconditional happiness and having an appreciation for life. So today’s post (for once ) , is a happy one. On the way to the Harry Potter studio’s I took the time to reflect on all the things I am thankful and happy about. Then , maybe on bad days , you guys, just like me can remember just how good we already have things J So , 15 things I am thankful for .....   1.      My Health 2.     My loving parents and the rest of my family 3.     Having money ,financial security and a home 4.     Having a group of (mostly great ) friends 5.    ...

Today is results day... Today is the day where I discover my long-awaited fate. Am I going to fail and regret every decision I’ve ever made? or am I going to pass , in which case I’m destined to be okay, or at least that’s what people say.   That’s on the condition that I go on to do well at the next stage Yet why must my life be a continuous series of tests and games? I’ve been absolutely dreading this day,   I can feel my heart beating out of my chest just pleading for this moment to go away.   Knowing that people are going to ask me what I’ve got is something I cannot face.   The pressure to do well hangs over me like a dead weight. What will people say? What if I’m the only one who fails and everyone else does great? It seems that we’re put under so much pressure at a young age   Expected to know what we want to do with our lives, make the right choices, get the best grades.   And expected to somehow, come out of it all okay. We’...

“ Maybe you can afford to wait. Maybe for you there's a tomorrow. Maybe for you there's one thousand tomorrows, or three thousand, or ten, so much time you can bathe in it, roll around it, let it slide like coins through you fingers. So much time you can waste it. But for some of us there's only today. The truth is, you never really know.” ― Lauren Oliver, Before I Fall What would you do if today was your last day? Would you be happy with how you spent it if it was to be your last? We constantly assume that we will have another day. But each day is a gift, and one that some people do not get. With the increased suffering and pain of people in the world, I find it hard to simply take for granted, and wish away , the gift of another day that I have been given. I wish to be caught up in the moment of the present; not constantly spending my time in the memories of the past. If I didn’t get a second attempt tomorrow, I want to make sure that I made every second c...

Our last day is finally here, And so now ends our Final Year. We'll always remember, the friends we hold dear, But can now look to the future without any fear. It’s the day we’ve been preparing   for, Since   we walked through the   door. But, now it's finally time to say our good-byes. So, today, shed a tear and share a smile, But, be sure to remember all the while, That although it may   be time to pack up and move on, Today's memories will last our whole lives long.

I keep preaching to work hard and follow your dreams, yet my mindset has been the complete opposite lately.   I’m sitting around in idleness, achieving absolutely nothing,   thinking to myself, what’s happening to me? It’s like I’m purposely choosing to trap myself in this cage,  and if I fail?   I’ll only have myself to blame. I can’t bring myself to do anything when I’m in this state, So when I preach to others,I feel so fake. I’ve gotten used to this feeling, I’ve become comfortable, I’ve lost count of the days, It’s all become one long stream of consciousness   where everyday feels the same. No routine, no stability - lately, there hasn’t even been a plan A. Just sleeping, doing nothing and wasting the time away. I’ve become the person I hate.   Feeling all sense of hopelessness,   constantly making the same mistakes again, and again, and again. My mind has gone blank, I've lost ambition,   and it just becomes harder and ha...

Don’t undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others, It is because we are different that each of us is special. Don’t set your goals by what other people deem important, Only you know what is best for you. Don’t take for granted the things closest to your heart Cling to that as you would your life, for without them life is meaningless. Don’t let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life. Don’t give up when you still have something to give Nothing is really over … until the moment you stop trying. Don’t be afraid to encounter risks, It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave. Don’t dismiss your Dreams. To be without dreams is to be without hope. To be without hope is to be without purpose. Don’t run through life so fast that you forget where you’ve been, But also know where you’re going. ...