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April: A modern love story

A head pops up and fades away ,
I sit here wondering what you were going to say,
are you finally going to confirm it ,
what I’ve been told,
that you actually like me ,
and I’ve been nothing but cold.

I guess I’ve been avoiding it ,
the elephant in the room,
afraid that to bring it up ,
that it would bring our friendships doom.

So ,you go first and I’ll reveal the rest,
I know it’s akwkward and scary
and we both feel stressed.


It’s already 3am,
this will probably take all night.
but it’s important to think about what to say
gotta get my words right.
You’ve become so important to me,
there’s not been a day we haven’t talked,
I’ve never cared for boys before,
but with you I’ve hesitated and thought,
just for a couple of seconds a day,
could this work ,
could we be okay?

You see,
With you everything is easy,
conversation’s never been a challenge,
you make me smile from ear to ear,
we just seem to simply just,
 balance

Should we just be friends,
will it all be too much,
I can’t stop thinking about how others will judge.

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