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Dear readers...


It’s been so long since my fingers stretched and yearned for the gentle clicking of the keyboard. Now I have chosen to be back online, with my thoughts unwinding onto the internet, trying to find a home in my own corner of the internet.

When I first decided to post on here I was searching for an outlet for my mental health issues -a way of finding closure on my past. I wanted a way of telling people how I felt without having to actually tell them. Ultimately, this blog helped me understand myself and work out where I wanted to go next, whilst developing my own passion for writing. So , reaching the end of 2018 I have added some of my writings from this year in the hopes it means something to someone one.  

Hope you have had a good year x

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